January: The clean slate. Promises made that will never be kept. But you really mean it this time. I don't know about you, but I always want to do better. Last year I was determined that I would: be able to do the splits, become more confident, befriend more people, and overall make a difference. Today I still can't do the splits, (but I'm still working on it!) and I'm not the social butterfly that I once wished to be. (and I've decided that's ok.) But I have improved a lot, or rather God has improved me. He has made me stronger and braver than I ever though I could be.
It is still a mystery to me, but God has done amazing things in my life. I learned to lean on His strength, because that is the only strength that I have. I am not all that I want to be, and if I though I were then something would be wrong. God has given me the courage and guidance to do things that would have scared me to death a year ago. God has given me incredible friends who have been an incredible blessing to me. But God has also taught me that sometimes I need to do things alone, with Him as my sole support and strength. God has brought me a long way, but there is so much farther to go.
So this year I resolve to grow closer to God through personal prayer and devotions. To seek to please God only, not people. To be a better friend and a better sister. And yet again, to be able to do a split.
As I was writing this post, an old hymn came to my mind. I Am Resolved. The lyrics describe exactly what I am resolving to do this year, and for the rest of my life. And what I also want for each one of you who take the time to read this. Who will join me? Drawing closer to God, following Him, and leaving the world behind...
I Am Resolved
I am resolved no longer to linger,
Charmed by the world’s delight,
Things that are higher, things that are nobler,
These have allured my sight.
I am resolved to go to the Savior,
Leaving my sin and strife;
He is the true One, He is the just One,
He hath the words of life.
I am resolved to follow the Savior,
Faithful and true each day;
Heed what He sayeth, do what He willeth,
He is the living Way.
I am resolved to enter the kingdom
Leaving the paths of sin;
Friends may oppose me, foes may beset me,
Still will I enter in.
I am resolved, and who will go with me?
Come, friends, without delay,
Taught by the Bible, led by the Spirit,
We’ll walk the heav’nly way.
I Am Resolved Words: Palmer Hartsough in The Praise Hymnal (Cincinnati, Ohio: Fillmore Brothers, 1896).