All my life I've been asked: "Are you an introvert or an extrovert? I always struggled with answering that question. If I said I was an extrovert, people would look at me accusingly as if I was trying to fake something. But if I said I was an introvert people would assume that I'm shy or that I don't like people. And neither of those are true about me. I love to talk, I love people, and I am by no means shy. But at the same time, I think more than I talk, I like being alone and I relish my occasional peace and quiet.
I've always been bothered when people try to divide us into those two groups with just one word answers. I need to explain! There is more to it than a yes or no question. I might be more of an introvert than extrovert, but that doesn't mean that I'm shy. I detest being called "shy" I hate it! When I'm quiet it's not because I'm scared to talk. I am either in deep thought, or don't think I have anything worthwhile to contribute to the conversation.
My friends know that I have a habit of rambling, I get started talking about ice cream and then end up discussing the price of real estate in southern Libya. There is no rhyme or reason to it, I just get distracted and totally forget the point I was trying to make. I probably say "What was I talking about?" more than anything else. Ever. Usually my friends are gracious and kind enough to remind me.
My friends also know that I tend to be very spontaneous in the most crazy sort of way. I have often left friends shaking their heads and hiding their faces in shame as I go hopping along reenacting a scene from the movie they mentioned. Or wearing the goofiest costume for no legit reason other than because I felt like it.
Neither of those things are common traits for introverts, but they are most common for me to do. I love making people laugh. Being goofy and embarrassing doesn't bother me.
We as human beings are so complex that you can't just lump us into two groups. God made us to be very complex and unique. None of us are exactly like another, you can't fix our problems by treating us just like someone else. We may share similarities with others, but we are still very different. I cannot think of one friend of mine who is exactly like me, and that is ok. I am blessed with a bunch of very close friends who I know I could trust with anything. And out of all my friends only about four have a lot in common with me. One of those friends once said to me "It's like we're the same person!" because we are so much alike. But there are still ways on which we are different. When we say "I'm glad I'm not the only one!" we feel good because we know we're not alone. It's easy to then cling to those similarities as the most important and ignore the rest of our traits as less valuable. But the truth is everything about you is valuable. Every single one of your quirks is important! The trick is learning to nurture the parts of you that aren't as popular. They are uniquely you, and that makes you special.
You may not "fit in" all of the time. I certainly don't. I have developed many good friends of very divers personalities and backgrounds. Each person I am with brings out a different part of my personality. I often say that my philosophy is that you can learn something from everyone that you ever meet. Whether they leave a positive or negative example. It's good to learn from other people. People inspire me to be more creative. They give me ideas that I can use in my own life. People show me that there are things out there that I might enjoy if I try them. Many a time I have found new favorite things because my friends liked them. People teach me that we are all different. By looking at just my close friends we often discus a certain topic and find that every one of us feels differently about it.
I have heard it said to just be who you are no matter what. But we don't need to just be us, we need to become more like Christ. there is a big difference between who you are as a mortal sinner, and who God is shaping you to become. God's plan for our lives is not a math equation. It's not the same for everyone, it's not one size fits all. There are things God wants everyone to do, and then there are things he specifically wants you to do.
I don't completely understand why God made me the way that He did. But I do know that He has a reason, He made me this way to prepare me for things I don't see yet. Some things don't make sense, and that's ok. Proverbs 20:24 says "Man's goings are of the LORD; how can a man then understand his own way?" God has a reason for everything He does, and we won't always understand. That's what faith is for.
All that to say: Don't be embarrassed about being you. You are different, you are weird, you are quirky, and you are beautiful in your own way.